Have you ever been so over whelmed by childhood memories that you feel you are reliving them ?
Well when my daughter moved out and moved in with her grandma.The woman who raised me.Those childhood memories that have haunted me for my whole life.Have poured back and more and more.This is a woman who my daughter thinks is a better mother and better person to live with. Where was this woman when I needed her and when I was growing up.Why didn't she protect me ? Now she thinks she can be a better mother to my daughter that I raised for 18 years and let nothing happen to.I was a good mother.I gave up a lot for my children and was happy to do so. They lived whole life with thier father.And no matter what they say he was a good father to them.He loves them more then life it's self and would lay his life down for them. But his daughter who he thought was best thing on earth has turned her back on him.he is hurt.For me knowing she ran to the person took me years to feel close too after all I lived through as a child.Hurts the worst.Now she wants to be the good mom to my daughter now that I raised her.And I am the bad person.This is the worst thing she could do to me.It will not be forgiven ever. And over the next few days I will be opening my heart and reliving some of my childhood memories in hope if someone reads them they might help another feel stronger.Names will not be posted so is not slander her or let people know who she is to come back and point fingers.These memories are mine.Living in my head from the pain caused.She wants her to tell her story then let her tell hers.This is all mine.Call it therapy. A Release kinda.Not to hurt anyone or put anyone down.Just the facts living in my mind I can not seem to get past in life.She can forget them sense she married and in church now but they effect me every single down still.And now to know my daughter choose her over me makes them cut me worse..So will be posting all next few days.Hope they help you in some way..Biz
Well when my daughter moved out and moved in with her grandma.The woman who raised me.Those childhood memories that have haunted me for my whole life.Have poured back and more and more.This is a woman who my daughter thinks is a better mother and better person to live with. Where was this woman when I needed her and when I was growing up.Why didn't she protect me ? Now she thinks she can be a better mother to my daughter that I raised for 18 years and let nothing happen to.I was a good mother.I gave up a lot for my children and was happy to do so. They lived whole life with thier father.And no matter what they say he was a good father to them.He loves them more then life it's self and would lay his life down for them. But his daughter who he thought was best thing on earth has turned her back on him.he is hurt.For me knowing she ran to the person took me years to feel close too after all I lived through as a child.Hurts the worst.Now she wants to be the good mom to my daughter now that I raised her.And I am the bad person.This is the worst thing she could do to me.It will not be forgiven ever. And over the next few days I will be opening my heart and reliving some of my childhood memories in hope if someone reads them they might help another feel stronger.Names will not be posted so is not slander her or let people know who she is to come back and point fingers.These memories are mine.Living in my head from the pain caused.She wants her to tell her story then let her tell hers.This is all mine.Call it therapy. A Release kinda.Not to hurt anyone or put anyone down.Just the facts living in my mind I can not seem to get past in life.She can forget them sense she married and in church now but they effect me every single down still.And now to know my daughter choose her over me makes them cut me worse..So will be posting all next few days.Hope they help you in some way..Biz
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